WORTH 50,000: DAY FOURTEEN - Molotov.

[momebie]

I didn't write anything last night! I am so good at this you guys! I did have a pretty lengthy discussion with a room of writers in which I was very awkward and slightly hysterical over the fact THAT I CANNOT WRITE BURST BECAUSE IT WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH AND JESUS FUCK WHAT AM I DOING? But they were nice, because they are nice people for the most part, and they reinforced a lot of things I know to be true but refuse to acknowledge over this.

And then one of them said: Is there anything you can write that you think will prepare you for the thing you can't write? And I said yes VERY QUIETLY, because I can? I can work on the Lesbian Spec Fic Tattoo-verse, which is a weird mash up of science fiction and magical realism and would probably help me to better make the transition. Also, I already have about 10,000 words of that because of LJ Idol, SO. I don't know. My head is a mess. Welcome to 1982.

But, today's image is not taking any of my shit, so that's nice. Whose shit aren't you taking?

Comments

[xsnarkasaurus.livejournal.com]

...i find myself completely distracted from any rational thought by the strip of skin that is visible. What does it feel like? Smell like? Taste like? Is it soft? Is he soft? Is there hard muscle underneath the skin, or is he merely lightly toned?

... it's possible i've been spending too much time describing bodies in the last chunk of my nano.

it's also possible that i...abuse ellipses.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

I...have been thinking that was a woman this whole time. I don't even know what is happening in the world anymore! But on the subject of bodies.

The blast has knocked the whole world ajar. Lisbeth pulls herself to her feet immediately, not wanting to give the concrete and smoke time to tie her down. She hears a faint groan to her right spots a bit of black fabric sticking out from underneath a collapsed awning of thick green and white stripes. The colors used to make her think of beach towels.

She pushes aside the rubble. The black t-shirt underneath is ripped and covered in blood, but when she pulls it up and runs her fingers across the body's--the young man's, she corrects herself, he's not dead yet--abdomen and waist there's nothing but soft skin and tight muscle. There are no tears or fissures. Where is the blood from?

The young man coughs and tries to sit up, but can't. That's when she notices the blood pooling beneath him. "There's something embedded in your back," she says. "I'd have to move you to see it, but I don't want to hurt you more."

His arms are spring loaded and tight to his torso as he pulls at the fabric wrapped around his face. She tugs it down for him and he gulps for air, wincing as the expansion of his lungs disturbs every part of him. "Find Marko," he says. "Find the other black mask. He's the only one who can help."

[xsnarkasaurus.livejournal.com]

.... KL, dude, *SERIOUSLY*, you and your ability to make things make so much sensual sense? By which i mean i can smell the smoke, the blood, see it creeping across the ground... faljoisuerlkj i want to beg you for more, but idk if i should!

Also, side note, i have a character named Lisbette in this yearh's nano.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

IF ONLY I COULD APPLY ALL OF THAT PRACTICALLY TO ANYTHING ELSE I NEEDED TO BE WRITING. Ugh. My head is such a mess. But thanks! Thank you for saying something that made me stop and put at least a few words down. Maybe today isn't a total loss!

Also, Lisbette is a kick ass name.

[xsnarkasaurus.livejournal.com]

also, as i look at the picture closer... think you're right. I think it *is* a woman. that's how distracted i was by the skin, i didn't even notice the curves. o.O

[momebie.livejournal.com]

I honestly don't know. I very frequently reblog things to that Tumblr BECAUSE the figures are androgynous and I find that aesthetic to be both appealing and inspiring. I think I assumed that one was female because she reminded me of Heeden from the BDESFN.

[glass-houses.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure it's a woman.

[xsnarkasaurus.livejournal.com]

yeah, i already reached that conclusion. I said I was distracted. XD

[legoline.livejournal.com]

THAT I CANNOT WRITE BURST BECAUSE IT WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH AND JESUS FUCK WHAT AM I DOING?

Story of my life. And the reason why I've been in a writer's block since April AND given up my life-long dream of becoming a writer. Go me \0/

[momebie.livejournal.com]

I don't think you should give up, but I never presume to tell people what to do. I know sometimes giving up feels like the only thing you can do. But it's also okay to let yourself fail for a bit. Part of why this has me so twisted up is that I'm refusing to let it be anything other than perfect, which is the surefire way to cause it to never be good enough. I might get over myself eventually.

WHATEVER. YOU'RE RAD. YOU JUST KEEP ON WITH WHAT MAKES YOUR BAD SELF HAPPY.