LJ Idol: Post Mortem.

[momebie]

So, it happened. I was voted off in the Second Round poll. But I feel like placing 18 (based on the vote tally at the closing of the poll) in an original pack of 250 or so is a pretty awesome thing. It's definitely better than I thought I'd do by, ooooooh, 200 or so. That's not a unique feeling for the competition though, and since I don't feel like I have a lot of unique feelings I'm just going to focus on myself for the time being.

Here are some numbers that I find interesting, because sometimes Em rubs off on me (oh baby):
Entries: 23
Fiction: 20
Entries in the BDESFN 'verse: 3
Entries in the Steampunk 'verse: 3
Entries in new 'verses: 14

That's a lot of new head canon, guys. When I go back and look at the last several years of writing--the three since I started working with the Steampunk characters in particular*--I look at a lot of empty space. I look at a lot of time spent feeling inadequate and unable to relay the worlds in my head to people outside of it. I look at a lot of time sat in front of blank documents and a lot of half finished stories that I just lost passion for before I got to the editing stage.

The bottom line is that I LOVE creating worlds and I love research and I love getting to know my characters, but I have a hard time carving out which parts of the story to keep or not keep and actually sitting my ass down to FINISH things. Teaching myself to do that was one of my goals for this year and I think that's the greatest thing I've taken away from all of this. For twenty some odd weeks (roughly) in a row I sat down and made something happen. I tugged at my brain and things actually came out of it. Sometimes things I liked quite a bit. And that bit is invaluable. I'm going to try and take that training and run with it as I complete that first draft of The Steampunk this year (if it kills me) and get working on the BDESFN in earnest.

Basically, thank you Idol, you've given me a lot. I'm glad I let bewize convince me to try this crazy thing. I'm glad I let theemdash talk me out of quitting weeks ago. I'm glad to have gotten to know all of you. I think most of you who want to be friends with me have probably already asked, but if you do and you're feeling hesitant, please go ahead and just let me know. I don't bite until the third date. I like biting! It's like kissing but with a winner!


* My god, it's been three years since I started working on The Steampunk. And look what I have to show for it. This is my whole point.

In news altogether unrelated to writing, Brendon Urie is still in the universe being REALLY FREAKING ADORABLE and I almost can't take it. Like, just seeing him smile fills me to the brim with joy and I wish I knew why because it makes me feel seriously predatory and creepy when I think about it. BUT I MEAN, JUST LOOK AT HIM.

Comments

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

Most of the time I can't formulate thoughts about Brendon Urie beyond UGH HIS FACE WHAT EVEN. So yeah, I feel that.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

MARGARET. HIS FACE. WHAT EVEN? IT'S NOT FAIR THAT HE GETS TO BE ADORABLE AND AMAZING AND THE REST OF US JUST GET TO BE SCHMUCKS.

[yachiru]

I always looked forward to your entries each week. I was like at least you and edincoat will quench my thirst for weird and beautiful things. :( Now you're both gone. I won't be too far behind though. Cannabalism fics only get you so far! ^^

[darkmachines.livejournal.com]

cannabalism? you, dear, are amazing.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

If there's one thing I ever wanted to be known for, it was weird and beautiful things. I guess that's two things. Whatever, I'll take it. And be pleased. And shit. ♥

Cannibalism fic should get you everywhere, but maybe I'm just biased!

[tentaclecore]

Cannibalism fic can get you pretty damn far, and don't you dare think otherwise, Miz Jaz D<

jfc i am making spelling errors all over the fucking place.

[darkmachines.livejournal.com]

as long as you keep writing, i'll be pleased!

[momebie.livejournal.com]

That is the plan! Maybe one day I'll even put on my big girl pants and try and publish something! And I know I stole you from edincoat and not Idol, but you're still one of my favorite things to come from this season. ♥

[tentaclecore]

You were seriously the first person I saw in the IDOL crowd who I was like, "oh wow this chick is cool, I want to know her." And I'll always be thankful to that community for creating a space for us to meet and become friends ♥

(also, it is so cool that you're taking away so much from IDOL. I'm glad it worked for you, really I am.)


Ahaha, Brendon Urie. That boy is older than me and I feel strange and creepy going eeeeee over him. It's just one of his finer qualities, making females all over the world go starry-eyed and not give a damn if it's weird or not.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

Pretty much. I'm kind of impressed that I didn't let myself be intimidated by you. I MEAN, NOW I KNOW YOU'RE KIND OF A SPAZ, BUT IT'S TOTALLY ENDEARING, SO THAT'S FINE. I LOVE YOOOOOU. ♥

(I try and take good things from all of my experiences. Sometimes it's easier than others.)

UGH. UGH. HE'S FIVE YERAS YOUNGER THAN I AM. I FEEL LIKE SUCH AN OLD CRAZY LADY. But yes, that is definitely one of his super powers.

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

I think you accomplished some major things for sure. I'm happy that you entered so that I could discover your work and get to know you a little :) I am definitely sad to see you go. Of course, we'll all be going soon enough.

I hope you continue with writing after the competition ends. For both our sakes! ;)

[momebie.livejournal.com]

Oh, don't worry. I'm sure I'll be writing until the day I die, and sharing it on the internet with my friends regardless of whether I ever publish anything. But I'm glad I got to meet you as well and I look forward to joint insanity. ESPECIALLY AFTER THE SPN FINALE TONIGHT. WHAAAAAAAAT.

[seratonation.livejournal.com]

\o/ im glad you got to go places in head canon, and finishing things, sitting down and actually accomplishing things is harder than its made out to be, so its cool you got that working.

also yes, brendon urie :D:D:D

[momebie.livejournal.com]

Finding new head canon is strange sometimes. Especially those times when things just FALL OUT and you sit there looking at them going 'you were in there the whole time, huh?' And then you and the head canon don't trust each other for a few days. But then there are drinks and it's all fine. Oh, is that just me?

There are not enough html hearts in the WORLD to accurately describe the joy his smile gives me. I think it's just that he seems to be honestly and openly enjoying a lot about his life, even when things are rough, and I want to have a positive attitude like that too.

[comedychick.livejournal.com]

♥ You already know how much I love your writing. I'm not sure I need to say it again ;) But you did DAMN well to have gotten to 18th place on this crazy ride. Damn well indeed. And I'm so glad you stuck it out until your elimination because I would have missed your words in the competition. I, of course, look forward to reading more whenever you do write. :D

[momebie.livejournal.com]

I think I probably would have missed them too. If I hadn't written this last one I wouldn't have gotten a key piece about the William character down into worlds until later, and I feel much more comfortable knowing it going in, you know? But I've also loved getting to read what everyone else is doing and absorbing more of the world than I had before in that way. I look forward to what you do with the rest of your time. ♥

[theemdash]

I'M MORE THAN HAPPY TO KEEP RUBBING OFF ON YOU. UNF UNF UNF.

NUUUUMBEEERRRSSS ♥_♥

I'm glad you learned many things about your writing and that you've been able to FINISH things. I do think those are very valuable lessons to learn (and to be re-learned over the years).

You know... we actually both might be nearing good points to regroup on The Steampunk, figure out where you are, what needs to be done, and maybe we can both work on bits of it. (I wouldn't mind starting some of the machinist parts since I miss Gerard and Jacob and everyone.) Just a thought as I'm ending this story and haven't yet started the Gay Pirates.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

OOOH BABY. I DEDICATE THIS, TO ALL THE PRETTY GIRLS. *dances*

You know me, I can't be happy unless I've learned SOMETHING from an experience. And my GYWO numbers look a lot better than they would because of all of this nonsense. YOU CAN APPRECIATE THAT I'M SURE.

I think regrouping is a good idea, and I definitely think we can and should work on things simultaneously. I might touch on the story tomorrow if I can't come up with the MoD story. We can make a date, at any rate. (SINCE WE NEVER GO OUT ANY MORE. IT'S LIKE YOU DON'T WANT TO BE SEEN WITH ME. YOU THINK I'M UGLY. WAAAAAH.)

[comedychick.livejournal.com]

You're going to be writing about gay pirates? I'm intrigued! In part because I've been writing about lesbian pirates. XD

[mstrobel.livejournal.com]

See, I was gonna say how awesome I found your writing and how you seem like a really cool person and awww and all that, but now I'm totally distracted by this Brendon Urie fellow who I'd never heard of before I clicked this link, and gosh darnit he is cute!

[momebie.livejournal.com]

I mean, I'd almost say he was the cutest, but I don't want to commit to something that serious at this juncture:



And of course, I'm rather glad that you think my writing is neat because I also think YOUR writing/person is neat and we can be all mutual appreciation fistbump society over it.

[mrsquizzical.livejournal.com]

i LOVE that photo! he is on the planet to bring joy and happiness. no doubt about it. ♥

[momebie.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty much just reduced to 'HIS FAAAAAAAACE' at every juncture. It's a good thing we have him to balance out all the minor annoyances. ♥

[java-fiend.livejournal.com]

I thought you had a great run through Idol. Your entries were always enjoyable and you're a really nice person. It's been a pleasure getting to know you. I'm glad that your friends talked you into playing this season. :-)

[momebie.livejournal.com]

Thank you for that. It's been a pleasure getting to know you and the other folks as well.