LJ Idol: Post Mortem.

[momebie]

So, it happened. I was voted off in the Second Round poll. But I feel like placing 18 (based on the vote tally at the closing of the poll) in an original pack of 250 or so is a pretty awesome thing. It's definitely better than I thought I'd do by, ooooooh, 200 or so. That's not a unique feeling for the competition though, and since I don't feel like I have a lot of unique feelings I'm just going to focus on myself for the time being.

Here are some numbers that I find interesting, because sometimes Em rubs off on me (oh baby):
Entries: 23
Fiction: 20
Entries in the BDESFN 'verse: 3
Entries in the Steampunk 'verse: 3
Entries in new 'verses: 14

That's a lot of new head canon, guys. When I go back and look at the last several years of writing--the three since I started working with the Steampunk characters in particular*--I look at a lot of empty space. I look at a lot of time spent feeling inadequate and unable to relay the worlds in my head to people outside of it. I look at a lot of time sat in front of blank documents and a lot of half finished stories that I just lost passion for before I got to the editing stage.

The bottom line is that I LOVE creating worlds and I love research and I love getting to know my characters, but I have a hard time carving out which parts of the story to keep or not keep and actually sitting my ass down to FINISH things. Teaching myself to do that was one of my goals for this year and I think that's the greatest thing I've taken away from all of this. For twenty some odd weeks (roughly) in a row I sat down and made something happen. I tugged at my brain and things actually came out of it. Sometimes things I liked quite a bit. And that bit is invaluable. I'm going to try and take that training and run with it as I complete that first draft of The Steampunk this year (if it kills me) and get working on the BDESFN in earnest.

Basically, thank you Idol, you've given me a lot. I'm glad I let bewize convince me to try this crazy thing. I'm glad I let theemdash talk me out of quitting weeks ago. I'm glad to have gotten to know all of you. I think most of you who want to be friends with me have probably already asked, but if you do and you're feeling hesitant, please go ahead and just let me know. I don't bite until the third date. I like biting! It's like kissing but with a winner!


* My god, it's been three years since I started working on The Steampunk. And look what I have to show for it. This is my whole point.

In news altogether unrelated to writing, Brendon Urie is still in the universe being REALLY FREAKING ADORABLE and I almost can't take it. Like, just seeing him smile fills me to the brim with joy and I wish I knew why because it makes me feel seriously predatory and creepy when I think about it. BUT I MEAN, JUST LOOK AT HIM.

Comments

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

I KNOW, RIGHT? IT'S LIKE THE UNIVERSE PUT ALL OF THE ADORABLE IN HIM FIRST AND THEN WAS LIKE FUUUUUUUCK WHEN IT REMEMBERED THERE WERE 6 BILLION OTHER PEOPLE THAT MIGHT WANT IN ON THAT SHIT. AND THEN IT WAS LIKE, WELL, I'D BETTER MAKE HIM TALENTED AND A TOTAL DORK SO EVERYONE JUST LOVES HIM.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

THAT IS THE MOST ACCURATE DESCRIPTION OF HIS WHOLE EXISTENCE THAT I HAVE EVER READ. GOOD WORK. But dude, look at this shit:

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

WHAT EVEN, BRENDON URIE. WHAT. EVEN.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

TALENT.

[tentaclecore]

. . . what. what is that dude on the right side of the .gif doing? It looks like he's having a monstrous fit of somesort, wtf.

In other news, Bden is bendy and I want to pinch his cheeks. CHEEKS.

[nyxocity.livejournal.com]

I think he's dancing? Or possibly he's consumed with joy that Brendon Urie almost landed on him?

[tentaclecore]

...Bden totally calls him squishy, I bet. Calls him squishy and calls him his own and lands on him all the time because who doesn't adore someone who has a fit with a chimmneysweeping thing while you're literally flipping out?

[momebie.livejournal.com]

Maybe he bet Spencer that Brendon couldn't actually do a back flip without hurting himself and is now upset that he's out $200. OR MAYBE HE'S JUST SO EXCITED TO HAVE BEEN THERE TO WITNESS THAT, BECAUSE I'LL TELL YA, I FEEL KIND OF LIKE THAT I ONLY WATCHED IT ON YOUTUBE.

[tentaclecore]

Mickeyway icon!!!! Totally need to look at that comic again, ohman.

kfjsldkfjsfjkdfjsf that was a foolish bet to take, flipping your shit chimneysweep dude. Don't you know that Bden is magic? He can do whateverthehell he wants!

[momebie.livejournal.com]

IF YOU FIND IT LET ME KNOW, BECAUSE I WANT TO READ IT AGAIN TOO. I just remember being way too amused. Also, that icon got SO MUCH USE when I was still in bandom heavy. THERE'S SO MUCH ABOUT BANDOM THAT'S UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS. Especially in the MCR bit, man. Cult of Goth Death my ass. More like Cult of Cupcakes and Glitter.

[tentaclecore]

HERE IT IS.

Thank god Skooze keeps her bookmarks organised. BECAUSE I DON'T, OMG.

Bandom is the most ridiculous thing on the planet, and everyone needs to experience it at least once because it genuinely MAKES YOUR LIFE BETTER. Seriously! It does!

[momebie.livejournal.com]

IRGH. *rolls around in Pete Wentz's castle*

Dude. I had someone tell me the other day that being in bandom was like THE LOWEST OF THE LOW and I was all YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. IT IS FILLED WITH JOY AND I AM FILLED WITH JOY BECAUSE OF IT. It's pretty much the only fandom I've ever been in where I constantly felt like we'd willed all of them into being.

[tentaclecore]

WHAT IS THIS TOMFOOLERY I DON'T EVEN. I admit, when I first saw RPS of any sort I was "oh hell no", but then I saw the joy and hilarity it brings to the people and was promptly converted. By the glitter.

NO ONE IS IMMUNE TO THE GLITTER!

jdlksjfdlskfjds; ahahaaha, these people are all too good to be true! Esp. Mikeyway and his unicorns. THAT HE IS THE KING OF.

[seratonation.livejournal.com]

OMG WHAT IS THIS. HOW IS HE SO AMAZING OMG

also you need to post this to tumblr so i can reblog it :D? :D?

[momebie.livejournal.com]

I DON'T KNOOOOOOW. But dude. Your icon. That picture is one of my favorite pictures EVER. You know what, just because I can:



AND REBLOGGED TO TUMBLR. DONE AND DONE.

[seratonation.livejournal.com]

:D:D:D:D thank you!

i have a talented friend lol, once all the pictures came up she put them all together so it looks like hes moving \o/ but yeah, its been the background of my phone since it came out (omg thats like 2 years ago) and i cant find anything better to change it with, because every time i look at it it fills me with joy, so lol i totally understand.