The worst part of the panic attack was when I tried to rationalize it and tell myself that I was making it happen and I could just stop it. But then, you know, not being able to breathe is a very physical thing that you can't really trick your brain into fixing. I've had asthma since I was wee, I've tried. But I agree. I feel less crazy when I don't fit a societal mold than I do when I don't fit my own personal mold.