I have a lot of half formed and errant thoughts about visibility and identity that the marble block can easily play in to. Like, I was mistreated (by one particular person) as a teenager as a direct result of how I looked, so now I am more comfortable being overweight and 'unnoticed' than being who I used to be. If the boys don't look at me they're not likely to hurt me, right? If I take away this protective layer that hides what the statue actually looks like someone might notice and that could end poorly.

Or, contradictorily, almost all statues are beautiful to someone. I shouldn't worry about making those marks and cuts in the marble because the end product will almost certainly be something to be proud of in some way. I should want to own that, right? That's what I'm trying to do, anyway.

But thank you for hanging in there with me. ♥