momebie

There's a whole paragraph that I ended up deleting about the cognitive dissonance created in 8 year olds by being told that people who don't go to church can't go to heaven and then told that it's ALREADY DECIDED who's going. How does that even make sense, oh Calvin of the ludicrous haircut? Then you get into the whole debate of, are you already chosen because you're the kind of person who WILL follow God's law to the tee, or can you really do whatever you want? Not that I really think predestination trumps free will. Just because I know the actions a person is likely to take does not mean that they haven't chosen to take those actions of their own accord. If a God were to be truly omniscient it's entirely possible he's simply reading the output at the end of everything and just taking liner notes. I think the part of that I struggled with as a kid was that he then got in his time machine and brought those liner notes BACK IN TIME to bully us with. It's a very delicate conversation that I feel was handled by a great deal of clumsy people in my youth. But yeah, I didn't want to dwell on the religion thing. ;)

I think that when I show this in my fiction it's sometimes pure feeling and it's sometimes research. For the BDESFN it's pretty heavily both, in that I know my feelings and have extensively researched the philosophies that informed them. I want that project to be aware of what it is. I like reading things like that, so it's by design there. In the serial and other one offs I've written, or even how things might come out of the Steampunk characters sometimes, it's more about how I was feeling on any given day when I was writing.