LJ Idol Home Game: Henotheism Continued

A/N: For the LJ Idol Home Game. This is a part of a larger thing I'm having lots of trouble with currently. As before, Neutron Star is still uncomfortably personal. Maybe that's why I keep feeling like I need to distance myself from it. Maybe it will be better in the end if I don't. But I guess you can all decide that.

Eli started to laugh. He could tell, by the look on Grant’s face, that this wasn’t a laughing matter. He couldn’t help himself. “Do you have any idea how sanctimonious you look right now? How you’ve become everything you said you hated? Do you even remember why we started doing this?”

“People change,” Grant said. “We’ve all changed, and you aren’t keeping up. I thought we’d have a chance at something new when we found out you were still alive. It was a miracle. It was the thing I’d been wishing for every night, and I was wrong. My desires are a monkey’s paw and they shouldn’t be heeded.”

“How is everything about me, down to my sizzling, collapsing atoms not new? I am literally worlds away from who I was at the start.”

“You’re still acting out in that way you always have. You’re still killing. You-”

( Eli could feel his skin tingling. The white hairs on his dark arms were starting to stand up, giving his emotions away like not even his voice would have before. )